Then, mercifully and sadly, the job was gone. While it didn't happen the way I wanted it to happen, it was gone. And, I wasn't sure what to do next, except to pray for direction and reach out to a friend who is also a life coach. Well, those two things have made all the difference in these last two weeks.
First, my prayers involved what Paul in the book of Hebrews calls the “sacrifice of praise.” I have never understood that phrase from Hebrews 13:15 more than during this time. I decided to choose to thank God for answering my prayer and delivering me from a hard place, rather than playing the victim like I usually do. I chose to offer God praise even though it was through gritted teeth sometimes, and I chose to simply breathe and pray when fear would form a knot in my gut the size of Texas. I’m still doing that. It’s getting easier to breathe. It also reminds me that God is indeed with me and has a plan.
Secondly, as I talk a write about a lot – I sought out trusted friends and wise council. I swallowed pride and reached out for help. I asked for prayer, admitting that I was not in a good place emotionally. That was humbling since I much prefer to be the one praying than the one at the center of the prayer.
One of the folks I reached out to is a friend and fellow life coach. It was the smartest, most God-inspired thing I did! It was her asking me powerful questions, my being extremely honest in my brokenness, and God’s amazing timing that has brought something new and life-giving into being.
Our new collaboration, Sand Dollar Visions (www.sanddollarvisions.com), was born out of a shared vision that Denise and I had each had but never explored. This ministry has grown out of our experiences as trauma and abuse survivors, our deep desire to bring the message of hope in God’s redemptive work, and our deep understanding of how difficult it is to dream again after years of believing the lies of our abusers.
This is the work that I was MEANT TO DO. Everything in my past has been brought to bear in doing this work and the work has just begun! I can see it now, even though I couldn't see it at so many places along the way. And the partnership with my friend Denise, is so perfect for this work. God has been in the details of all of this.
It is amazing how quickly all of this has come together. Our first workshop, Discovery Day is July 12, and the retreat, Dream BIG!, is scheduled for October. We are so excited about the people who have caught the vision and come alongside us to help people affected by abuse and trauma do the work to be the best they can be.
I hope that you will visit the website and join us for personal work that will prove to be both revelatory and encouraging. You’ll also be part of a new and growing (already!) community of people who want to see change in their lives and in the world. You can register get more info and register at www.sanddollarvisions.com/upcoming-events.html.
What I have learned these last weeks is that God hears, coaching works (even for coaches), and community is there when we reach out for it.
Where are you today, friend? Are you in the wilderness? How about being willing to be willing to praise God? Even through gritted teeth, God understands that you want to be able to do what he asks.
Seek wise counsel. Talk to people who will ask you hard questions that require you to look at things from a different perspective. Join us for the workshop and the retreat.
You might find a new adventure to embark on that will bring you a sense of purpose and some deep down joy in the midst of uncertainty. Join us in doing something new!
for these sacrifices also please God.